||[Nov. 7th, 2006|10:04 pm]
HAHA How funny "seeing" someone can be. It just means so many different things to so many different people. Here i thought seeing someone was to care about them, to try and make them more happy, but i guess i've been stumped again. "i need time" it seems time is all i've got now. i feel like a used tissue. Sure it's great when you need one, but once you've used it, you just throw it away.
To think that she cared about how i felt. She doesnt care about what anyone else. why would i be any different. You may think im over reacting (in which i agree) but im just sick of being used. too many times this has happened. "its not you, its me" Does this mean im the only sane left. Or is it that im attracted to the insane(or maybe im ugly). i guess i'll never know.
If your reading this and you made it this far, i applaud you. i know this is going to make me seem like a dick, well i am so i dont give a shit. "I just dont want to hurt you" Bullshit. i was just there to boost your self-esteem, make you feel better, and i'm more then happy to do that to anyone. but i got fucked this time around. maybe someday i'll get used to it.
ahhhhhh that felt good. i might regret putting this on livejournal but at least i feel better. kiss my black ass if you think im just being a jerk. all i am is nice so i need to be a asshole sometimes.